GRUNT MANIA

2023

Depression makes you important I guess I’m important I guess so I’ll endure it I guess.

Depression makes you morbid makes you want it miss it miss him wish it wish him the best then wish his life away LIFE makes you miss yourself hit yourself key-hole and chopstick yourself but still wish yourself better wash yourself away then say I miss myself and self help and self stealth and self lingering

Lingering-post-self-post-lingering-post-anything posting

I’m still learning – the hurting’s getting boring, I’m burning, I’m yearning

You yearn to learn to talk again I mean I yearn to learn to key-holes to chopsticks to parchment paper lunchtime it’s crunchtime so we line up for the bathroom to do lines in the bathroom to piss bottles role models to midnights to street fights to burn to yearn to learn to walk again I mean 

Depression leaves an impression leaves you four dimensional with no conventional way to lift this heavy head off a pillow made of metal

I mean where’d my will go?

I say I feel burning yearning

clueless

Will we ever make it through this? 

The more unconscious I am of my own message and the further I am from giving my monsters a total shape (physical or metaphorical), the closer I am to saying something real.

I’ll say it again.